Bits and pieces

I suddenly find myself opening up to my buddies Sol and Thoni, about my past. Concerning A close and dear friend and someone I once loved.

As i started to reminisce all those still quite painful events, I know in myself that although bits of pieces of details are all a bit flaky , somehow the pain of betrayal still lingers. Not that much to cry on but enough to feel the sting.

I dont know what happened to him, but as to that dear friend, I am still communicating with her, I never confronted her of what happened back then, I just simply slowly drifted away from her.

Whatever transpired between us, I still consider her as a friend. Somehow, those many years spent are not enough to just forget just because of what happened. I have my own misgivings as she too has.

"Sometimes your closest friend is your greatest enemy."

I was thinking this way back then, but now as time heals all wound:

"Friends are the most important ingredient in this recipe of life."

Just like what I feel from having Sol and Thoni as my dearest friends.

Project Malasakit

I will be joining again this year Project Malasakit Tree Planting Activity. I am exuberant to witness again Nature's Beauty and able to pay back what the Nature has given me. I am always bemused of the vast arable land ready to be planted and cultivated. I am eager and determined to perpetuate giving my time joining this worthwhile event. Last year, I joined the activity alone but still enjoy communing with nature. But this time, I have with me Sol, Mommy cel, Cesar, Manj, Ms Yen, Anne, and Jesse. Surely, it will be an unforgettable experience.

Anyone bites the cat?(tunn tunn tunn)

The only way to get the best out of an argument is to avoid it. Admittedly, it’s not easy as it appears. Sometimes, we get to feel that it’s one of those lucid intervals that we get to experience from time to time, particularly when we can’t help but to “bite the cat,” so to speak.“Bite the cat” goes like this: A mean husband yells at his wife, who, in turn, yells at the oldest child, who slaps the youngest child, who kicks the dog, who then goes and bites the poor cat

apply natin sa buhay buhay gobyerno:

"GMA yells at his AFP General for not ensuring her "special request tasks" who, in turn yells at the next ranking Official, who slaps his Major,who kicks its captains, who then goes and bites the poor soldier".

kaya tuloy madaming mutineers na pusa eh, eheste army pala..

aLWaYs giVe 100% aT WoRk

I believe I have my simplest explanation for this graphic :

Monday -why 12% - maybe bec. most of people who forcibly (by inner force or outside force) go to work are still in a saturday and sunday mode. The body clock is yet to adapt from Leisure mode to work mode. So people are busy opening their personal outlook and updating their friendster account.

Tuesday - why 23%? - the body is now starting to pace some momentum here, but not that much..maybe tomorrow.. gotta lots of blog reading to do.. (PEP, Harry potter, politics etc)

Wednesday - why 40%- maybe the boss is starting to make some follow ups on the pending reports (way back since no one knows when) and since you got annoyed on how your boss mistreated you, you dont have any choice but to work grudgingly. But still you allot time to check from time to time new mails and chat on intervals.

Thursday - why 20% - because you have already given and attended to your boss whims, you've exhaled a lot of pressure here, and starting to shift from work mode to leisure mode..(tindi!) youve got to update and post write ups on your blog account (surely, lotsa readers are waiting for your next post -be it educational or no brainer)

Friday - why 5% - you're physically present but work mindedly absent, you're time spent in the office is allocated to doing your weekend tasks (businesses) and planning your weekend get-away, your phone is on a busy mode setting up appointments and inviting some friends to go with you and spent the weekend somewhere else. You got irked if someone talks to you about work. Thinking they are so workaholic and doesnt give you space to spend life to the fullest.

But still, you cannot be found guilty, since you've still worked 100%..(but not on a day-to day basis) hehe..

Two most important person in my life

Aside of course with my family (Mama, Tatay and Ate), Loloy and Butter Belly are one of people whom I hold and treat very dearly.. why?

My BoLoloy - Gendryck Loyd Tapinit as real name, I love him on making me smile always on his unique views and stance in life. I'll never forget how he touched our lives just being with us since his 3rd month of infancy. Now being a 3 yr old boy (turning four) I still look forward going home with him bouncing and shouting as his way of welcoming me. ( parang preso na nag aantay ng dalaw..hehe) sabay sabi " Ate pasalubong" and the usual i brought him a box of Donut ( Dunkin Donut ) ayaw niya ng Mr donut at kailangan bilog siya.. kasi minsan binilhan ko ng alang butas na donut ayaw ba naman sabi di daw donut un kasi alang butas, minsan munchkin ayaw din kasi alang butas (oo nga naman) donut nga eh. (hehe) minsan may pagka ingrato din (sa dugo ata nila) joke.. sabi naman minsan, "Ay donut na naman?" sabi ko "ayaw mo?" biglang bawi sabay ngiti "hindi po!" hehe..

Humahabol na din talaga pag aalis ako o si ate, kaya ginagawa ko pinapatulog ko muna sa hapon sabay takas ng alis. mabigat din sa loob pero mas okay na ung ganun.. Sabi ko na lang " kailangan ni Ate mag work kasi la ka na pambili ng gatas.." sabi naman niya sabay yakap " Di, Di nako dede gatas.. kanin na lang :..(natawa talaga ako) Minsan naman din bibili si Tatay ng pampers niya kasi naubusan na.. sabi niya " Wag na mag pampers, para alang gastos." ewan ko ba kung saan niya napupulot yung mga sinasabi niya ..hehe. naisip ko nga siguro pag di namin siya naalagaan mabuti tiyak juvenile delinquent ang labas niya (hehe)

At isa pa Paborito niya talaga si ninong niya..((butter belly) lagi nalang nagtatanong pag tumutunog ang CP ko na kung si Ninong niya ba un..kailan daw kami ulit pupunta sa kanila.. atkung ano ano pang pangungulit..siguro kung di siya dumating sa buhay namin, kanya kanya kami sa bahay..di mo mahahagilap si tatay, may asawa na si ate, ako tatamarin na umuwi, at si mama mangungunsumi kay tatay..(hay) kahit na madami kami pinagdusahan sa pag aalaga at pagsaway sa kakulitan niya di pa din matatawaran ung kaligayahan na binigay niya samin. dahil nga sa kakulitan, imagine mga 8 mos. pa lang sya tumatayo sa duyan nang di namin namamalayan na gising na pala, (buti na nga lang di namimili ng kung sinong bibigyan ng guardian angel si lord, kesehodang makulit ang bata, hehe) nandun 3 beses na nahulog sa bintana, muntik makalulon ng bentesingko, nakuryente ng 2 beses, nagkumbulsiyon ng 3 beses, nasundot ang mata ng espada( at nung dadalhin na sa ospital, nakakita ng jolibee, nadilat ng mata kahit konti sabay sabi "jollibee ambo.." hay naku. lagi ko tuloy pinagpapray na safe lagi..

mahilig siya sa car, ayaw niya ng pagkain pag alang sabaw (except na lang hotdog, pareho kami)

stress relief niya ang maggupit ng mga papel (this moment lang ata siya natatahimik) gustong gusto niya na binabasahan ng story bago matulog (bilib nga ako kay ate sa dami ng version sa isang story outline lang) mahilig siyang mag bike at mag jogging sa madaling araw, 1 1/2 pa lang siya kasakasama na siya nina mama at taty mag jogging sa may bukid,at madami pang ibang kalokohan at kabibohan. basta ang alam ko lang puede na siyang pang back up kung sakali man di kami magkababy ni butter belly. (sigh) hehe.

“A baby will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bankroll smaller, home happier, clothes shabbier, the past forgotten, and the future worth living for”

On my Butter Belly - one thing in common nila ni Loy is ung sobrang makulit, (as in) grabe din mag create ng mga palusot at paliwanag, ung tipo ba na siya ung mali mapapaikot ka sa usapan na hanggang dulo eh mafefeel mo na ikaw na ung may mali..(sigh again) sobrang sweet ( at our first 2 yrs lagi siya naka embrace, hold hands) sobrang paranoid sa safety ko..attentive sa mga mood swing ko (topak), sobra sobrang pasensiyoso sa kasalbahean ko, sobrang senti, kung baga ako ung lalaki at siya ung babae samin, peace loving person, ayaw nang gulo at away pero once na magalit nakakatakot.., madami pang bagay na nagustuhan ko at nakita sa kanya, blessed nga talaga ako kasi siya ung binigay sakin para mag guide at mag inspire. Kahit na mejo matatagalan pa bago kami magsimula talaga ng pamilya, I'll take the chance to wait. Madami man kami differences, siya pa din ang gusto kong makasama magbuo ng isang pamilya.

"Love is like a friendship caught on fire. In the beginning a flame, very pretty, Often hot and fierce, But still only light and flickering. As love grows older, Our hearts mature And our love becomes as coals, Deep-burning and unquenchable. "~ by Bruce Lee ~

Anniv day!

eeets our 5th year Anniversary! Yipee!

I dont know what is in store for me on this special day, but what the heck! What matter most is we are still together, still loving each other on our each own special way. He-for always finding the guts understanding me and me - on constantly nagging and bickering at him (hehe)

So, on this day, just want you to know my butter belly that I will always love you and be with you no matter what the circumstances are.

Thank you so much for showing me unconditional love, hoping, somehow in my own little way, I have reciprocated the love you have given me.
We have still more and more years to spent with, to argue, to enjoy, to learn with...

Hope you still then have lots of understanding to be able to deal with my atrocity.(hehe)

Quote for the month

Got this lovely quote in our Dept -Bulletin Board:

"Who longest wait of all surely wins" -Helen Hunt Jackson

Whoa! makes me feel a bit comfy of the idea of waiting.. Even for so long (say 3 more yrs?)

Anyhow, I love this quote hehe..

craving for Shrimp

Lately, Ive got this cravings for:

Hap chan

wahh!! I need to satiate my cravings before my belly freaks out! (fearing I'll lose our first unborn child!) hehe joke joke!

I love seafoods (esp Shrimp!) .. and nothing else...wah!

what's in my name anyway?

Got this link and tried it at once.. hehe..

Yeah, I will become one, as soon as I repent all of my transgressions, and find the path again to His fold..

My name is kinda creepy I guess..

I have a new mantra Ive got from reading "Tuesdays with Morrie" - its "Love or perish"

yeah..

onette -- [noun]: An immortal 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Running out of patience

Lately, I just wondered, why I am becoming less and less patient with anything or to anyone around me.

My patience is wearing too thin..got to check and have an appointment with a psycho expert i guess..

lemme think, how many times did i got irate with my butter belly? it seems in a day being together, I say its every 5 minutes span in each hour spent with him? (hopeless!) (60 mins in 5 mins span= 12 times in an hour!)

whoaa...

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Pera O Bayong -Kuya in red Shirt

Got A chance to experience joining "Pera o bayong" contest last Dec06. I was barely 2 mos in Shell then. I was with Butter Belly and Bololoy that time, pretty exhausted tending to Bololoy's whims and needs. (but I aint no sorry Ive bring him up)

My other half jokingly said " I wasnt that lucky enough for my name to be called on the many raffles and draw shell has" but before I could utter a word, I heard my name being called as one of the 100 participants for pera o bayong (at stake is worth of 10k cash)

I just half heartedly go and hid myself on the crowd., musing to myself I just play it all along " hahanap me ng mejo matanda na sa Shell kasi for sure he knows more than me pgdating sa history and events". Luckily out of all the questions raised meron naman din akong alam na isagot (fresh from my on boarding training i guess) but I instantly spot "Kuya in blue shirt" Bibo kasi eh, nag rereact once a question is raised.(hehe) so go ako with him. kaso nung mga last seven questions na out si kuya (luckily that time alam ko ung sagot ) at hindi ako sumunod sa kanya. Patay, I have to find another person to look up to for answers (daya ko ba?) and I spot "kuya in red shirt" bibo din eh, so follow ulit ang drama ko. Nararattle nako tapos nakita ko pa si Loloy umiiyak , di ata mapatahan ni Alvin..gusto ko na tuloy mag backout at umalis na lang.

Then nakita ko nalang 2 na lang kami ni Kuya in red shirt. (patay) ang last question pa is : ano ang ibig sabihin ng " Islam" luckily, sobrang excitement ata niya tumakbo na lang siya sa first choice kagad, so no choice but to go to the nearest possible answer.. hehe . and luck of all luck, tama pa ung sinagot ko..(araw ko ata talaga)

Well. all along ito ung mga nareliaze ko:

• di mo talaga pala maiisiip lahat , kasi unang una nenerbyusin ka. pano na kaya pag Isang Milyon ang stake? o kaya life and death?
• naisip ko okay pala talaga na laruin lang ung laro, di mo kailangan seryosohin at paghandaan,(kasi game of luck nga eh.. kung sayo, sayo, kung hindi hindi)
• iiral pa rin pala ung pagka sigurista ng isang tao, natakot kasi akong di makuha ung pera kaya nag go na ako kahit na nasa 8k pa lang un
• minsan din nakakatulong din ung pagiging street smart, kasi kailang meron ka ding konting diskarte sa paglalaro
• nareliaze ko di mo talaga alam kung kelan ka lalaruin ng tadhana, bibiglain ka talaga sa panahon na di mo inaakala..(hehe)
• At last, pag ikaw ang nakatsamba na makasali, iwasang mag pakabibo, smooth ka lang, master the art of concealment..para di ikaw ang umuwing talunan..(hehe)

Siyanga pala, masaya ang pasko ko (at namin) dahil parang nag ka bonus din ako kahit na ala akong bonus..(hehe)

Over the weekend with my Bololoy

Over the weekend(got from my friendster blog)

Saturday, I hurriedly pack the things Loloy and I will be needing for the party. I prepare his milk ( for 5) bring extra two bottles, a bottle of mineral water, 3 pair of clothes, 1 pair of slipper, one extra diaper (I don’t know how to change one, but I’ll find help in any way) and two baby towels. I never forget the chips,cookies and candies just in case. I reminded myself to drop by at the kids store to buy gifts for Joan’s Baby Gian. And as usual, Loloy picks up one toy he would like. Which Im not hesitant to buy since I know it will make him more occupied into his toy rather than on the long hours sitting in a bus traveling to Pampanga. I also bring along with me one bag of goodies for the prizes and give aways. So with a bag on my back, plastic on other hand and another just to hold him tight, then off we set.. We hurriedly go to the terminal in Monumento because they (my co-workers in Ibank) already left us.(sad)
Lagi na lang merong problema. Si loloy ayaw pa naman ding magpakarga for me to save some fare..(hay naku) and he usually insist on buying foods he like pag merong vendor na sasampa sa bus. I even tell him “wag un kasi may lason” ang siste sabi ba naman “ E bakit sila kumakain?” (oo nga naman) I feel I wasn’t talking to a three year old boy..(sarap ihulog sa bus) hehe.. And then after a grueling hour, nasa terminal na kami, I hurriedly find a seat na magkatabi and sa dulo na lang ang bakante so no choice. Kahit mainit kahit aircon nagtyaga na lang ako, masakit na din ang balikat ko sa bitbit ko.
And nung nasa biyahe na kami hay naku, la pakami sa North, umusok na ung bus..(may balat ata sa puwet ang kasama ko) para kaming nag pruprusisyon sa bagal ng takbo. Ung oras na dapat 45 mins nagging almost two hours na travel time. Pero si loy, enjoy lang sa pagupo at paglaro ng car nia (ung kalahting dipa nia din sa haba) at least di sya apektado sa gulo ng mundo, suwerte nia, malas ko..ayaw pa isara ang kurtina kahit na katirikan ng araw.. Pero kahit busy alerto siya pag nagttxt ako, tintatanong kagad si Ninong yan? (happens to be my BF) at kung saan namin siya susunduin. Ilang beses ko man sagutin na di natin sya kasama may klase si ninong, sige pa din sya sa pagsabi na susunduin namin sya.. At around 3:00 pm nasa San Pablo na kami, sabi ko sa trike driver kuya Patawaran (place) di nia ata ako maintindihan kasi sabi ko Pa-ta-wa-ran dapat pala Pat-aw-ara-n (may punto) hehe..hay naku.. nakadating din kami sa wakas. Mukha na kaming basang sisiw sa alikabok at pawis.. Si loloy agad ko pinunasan at pinalitan ng damit at ayun, nag ikot ikot na..nakakita ng bike, sinakyan nia buong hapon…kahit na mega tsika ako sa mga dati ko kawork sa banko, di ko inaalisan ng tingin si loy, mahirap na..nood lang sya ng naliligo sa pool, sabi ko gusto mo maligo? Ayaw nia, nagumpisa ang party, natuwa ako nung game na bring me.. socks na brown ang sinabi..eh si loloy lang ang bukod tanging na ka brown socks (hehe), nag suguran ung mga nanay sa kanya para kuhanin..sbay takbo sa kin kasi natakot..(ang feeling ko nanay na ko talaga) lalo na nung kinarga ko sya at niyakap para di umiyak..(hehe) well, back up ko talaga siya pag hindi man kami magkaanak ni Alvin..kasi kahit ubod ng kulit si Loyd malambing sya at matalino. Di siya nag baby talk, straight magsalita, matalas mag isip..Pag umuuwi me ng bulacan talagang tatabi at tatabi siya ng higa sa akin, yayakap at tatanday..namimiss ko tuloy siya pag bihira akong makauwi..
Nung pauwi na kami nagpipilit pa din na sa kina Alvin kami matulog..puntahan daw naming si ninong niya. Sabi ko bukas na lang(kahit di totoo) para pumayag..
Hay naku, alas onse na ayaw padin matulog..katabi pa nya ung kotse niya na nilampaso sa lupa maghapon. Pinaliguan ko nalang muna bago itabi sa kanya..
Nafeel ko kahit na ala pa sa tuldok ang paghihirap na na feel ko sa pag alaga sa kanya, ung amount of happiness naman ang di ko masukat..iba pala talaga pag may bata, feel mo laging merong pag asa, sa bwat ngiti at tawa niya, pakiramdam ko ang kumpleto ng mundo. Iniisip ko na ung magiging bukas nia. Kahit na di ko man sya kadugo, alam ko binigay siya ng Diyos sa amin para mapuno ang pamilya na meron ako.
Siyanga pala, suwerte pa din pala ako di ko na kailangan magpalit ng diaper..tatay ko na lang, pagkadating naming sa bahay..

Butter Belly

On or 5th year on being together, I posted a comment for my Butter Belly on his friendster account:

"Who are we to question God and faith? You came into my life like an angel, at a time when all I was praying for was to get rid of the ghost of an unsolved passion. But my prayers brought me something far better than I had asked for, for not only they cast away from my memory that shadow that made me suffer, but they also put you in my path, bringing back all the joy that I’d begun to think was lost forever.
Your calm and patience towards my fears – the fear of getting hurt again – have truly moved me. In the beginning I doubted you could even care of someone like me, the way I was back then, insecure and felling so low … but you waited, you understood that sad moment in my life, you came closer in a wise and subtle way, and gradually made me trust you and your affectionate ways. Little by little the old ghost vanished and I realized I loved you and that something about you made me feel so good. I realized that you were the best thing that had ever happened in my life and I’m so happy to finally be able to tell you that. "

I know im blessed to have him as my best friend, my enemy, my comforter, my shock absorber, confidante, and companion as I go trough rough and good times of my life..