Love on a different angle

Lately, I was into deep thinking and realization that I wasnt being fair to my companion. I end to be harsh to the words I spoke to him, quick to anger, patience wearing too thin. I had this habit of saying if we ever parted ways, he's the one who ends up losing. That Im brave and strong enough if ever he left me behind. That I can't wait that too long, so many worries,too many demands and whinning.

I realized that My butter belly is one of a kind person. Inspite all of this, he still continue to show me love, forgiveness, patience and kindness. I have showed all the bad things i am capable of doing, all my skeleton in the closet, revealed all my deep secrets, thinking that eventually he'll end up leaving me for good. But he still accepted me for who I am, prodding me to change for better.

It is really true that the value of a person you'll never realized as long as they are gone. And I dont want to feel or to be in the situation like that. I know that He's the one I do really want to share my whole life with, in happiness and in misery.

I just hoped that I can change for the better.

It is amusing that if i try to remain calm and patient, he jokingly asked me " Di ko sanay di mo ko inaaway at sinusungitan, nakakatakot hehe". see? ganun ako kasalbahe sa kanya.. sa kanya lang naman hihi.. I feel kasi na lahat ng kaartehan at kasungitan ko tolerable sa kanya. (spoiled)

Lagi ko naman talaga pinagpapray na sana maging mabait nako, kahit pa unti unti.. I try to tone down my emotions, supress my anger and try to have a calm disposition. reading scriptures and attending Sunday Sacrament is really an effective tool for me to hold my temper.

I am most willing to compromise everything and anything, wag lang ako iwan ni butter belly..hehe..

ciao!

Putting things in perspective

I have received this coming from one of my colleague here at shell. I was deeply touched and felt guilty of being so stubborn and selfish. I think that I was always being deprived of anything I wanted not only for me but for my family as well. I do pray daily but forgetting to say thanks whole heartedly on every blessings Heavenly Father poured down on mine head. This is one of those times I remembered that I, indeed is far blessed than everyone whose left devastated because of Wars, plague, human abuse, sickness and extreme poverty. I dont know how to help them but I know by starting to feel blessed and not selfish will help me extend my heart to those far more in need than me. I know that the best cure for someone whose having or into difficulties is to focus herself or himself to service. Commit good deeds, Gloomy? find someone you can cheer up, penniless? look someone whom you can share what is left of you who mostly needed what you have than yourself. I believe and have faith that those who suffer here on earth, whose gone to so much tribulation and misery will in end inherit God's Kingdom, they are the ones who will be sitting at the Lord's side. And I feel grateful for that, knowing that Jesus is fair and just. He wont allow those people who've died, suffered on earth to not have inherited their glory. God is fair. He is not impartial. I remembered one talk, that when a soul(intelligence) before he/she got a chance to experience mortality, a choice is given, what life you want it can be short but painful (really) or it can be long but you'll experience both joy and sorrow. Those who will choose short but painful life will eventually inherit his kingdom and glory. They are those who suffer not as much as the savior suffers but they will die for the cause of Good, for the Son and our Creator Jesus Christ, they are the ones who suffered immesurable sickness and pain, ridiculed because of their faith and belief, cast out because of their status, completely suffering. But those people who choose long life on earth must be valiant and should remain worthy, they should be firm and steadfast to hold to their faith. what good here is they both have their glory based on what they do here on earth. I do love Heavenly father's plan, for giving us evertyhing we need, for giving us free agency, to decide what we think and feel is right or wrong. But in end, I know those people whose have their fair share of Jesus Misery will inherit his Kingdom and Glory til the end.