lab, luv, LOVE

Sigh, these past days has been a roller coaster ride for my feelings and emotions again..

Yeah, Many times that Ive been consumed again and again by my uncontrolled TEMPER and being abrasive to those around me. Many times i let myselp slip on holding off my tounge and then lashing everyone with my opinion, though they may be right but the way of delivering it was a bit or rather harsh to them.

Nah, i need to REALLY resolve this on my own, as what Alvin says You are what you SPEAK, and the WAY you handle Things DEFINES who you really are.

I do hope I have the highest spiritual maturity as what my Hubby has, or Prophet Thomas Monson, or even Bro Bo, wherein they are like beings of Pure Light. if someone were to throw dirt on them would be nothing for it to stick to and it would pass straight to them without affecting them..Great huh, Yes ...it is, indeed.

I know that when I allow myself to be less than, or to get upset, or to hold grudges, or afraid, or insecured or feeling a bit envious and resentful then I cannot attain the same spritual maturity that Hubby has, the dirt will still stick and I'll STINK.. not good..not Good..

Hubby told me that in his moment, wherein he only dwells himself to be in a good mood (well, with the years of being together, seldom I see (i can count it in my one hand in fact) him to be upset, angry and resentful. Positive thinking is what he always says, wherein if you got it on that state of mind, nothing that anybody said could upset you, and that is what I should feel like all the time.

I should learn how to not hold back any of my love, I should embodied the meaning of CHARITY..unboundless, unconditional LOVE. That I should Love without respect to whether or not anyone (REALLY) deserves my Love, and Im allowing Love to shine outward myself to everybody and into every situation I am in. Pretty Hard to do right? but it is the only way..Yeah i know.

Added to this is what Alvin also shared, even if you are good most of the times, even if you do good, but when times get rough, and disagreement arise and you suddenly BLOW UP, then all, ALL the good things, ALL the admirable qualities you have will be put into NIL. Nada, NOTHING.

Happy I am still, that sometimes, yeah Sometimes (whether You believe it or not) i was able to hold off my Temper and not to react all the time.. Reactive kasi ako talaga.. I'll always put my two cents in in whatever situation I am in..

Well, I should not hold off showing Love, so in this season of Love, My hubby will be my guinea pig.. oh, Lucky Him...